A Mami

Ok, so I think my first blog was aight...lol so I'll keep going...

So today is officially the kids first day back to school and I'm happy. They're not, but I AM. Don't get me wrong I miss them when they're at school, but mami needs a breather. A 7 and 5 year old running around all day is exhausting. Mami I want, Mami I need, Mami I'm hungry, Mami I'm bored, Mami he/she hit me, Mami, MAmi, MAMI!!! How about, Thank you Mami, Please Mami, No thank you Mami, Ok Mami, I LOVE YOU MAMI...well for the most part they do, I might be over exaggerating a bit.

I'd have to say that no matter where they are I'm thinking about them. Whether they're away with their dad for a week or sleeping in the next room, they are always in my head. Are they ok? Are they getting what they need? Are they safe? Fed? Warm? What do they want to eat? Do they have homework? What are they wearing tomorrow? Is it time to pick them up? You get my drift...

Ever since I found out I was pregnant for the first time my mind morphed into Mami Mode. And I seem to have never been able to turn it off. I mean honestly, I don't think I ever will be able to.

I lived my life doing what I wanted(for the most part). Nothing keeping me grounded. Trust me, I wasn't out partying my life away, but none the less, it was just ME. I worked, went to school, and had some good times. But as soon as they said, "your pregnant," it all changed(well for me it did). And that's ok. More than ok, that was the best thing ever for me. I had to be the best not only for myself, but for the baby. No more doing for me, there was a living, breathing, growing being inside me. And I had to shape myself into what the baby needed.

And by the grace of God I am a Mami(of two), AND PROUD OF IT...lol

I will always: Want to protect them(from everything), Love them(unconditionally), Be there for them(even when they don't want me to be), Kiss them before bed(well until they move out), Pick them up when they fall down(emotionally, physically). I embrace what God has blessed me with daily. Their smiling face(or sad), all the Mami(I want, need, I'm hungry, bored, etc), the leave me alones(from my daughter), the No's(from my son), all the please and thank you's, all the kisses and hugs(for as long as they'll give them), and for the I Love You's(even when they don't say it, I'll know it). And I'll hope and pray and have faith and believe they'll both know(Forever!) I Love Them, Too.

Whether they like it or not...

I WILL ALWAYS BE THEIR MAMI!