Sleep?

It's wind down time and I'm all wound up. This night was...well it was what it was. I'm not tired but I'm already dreading tomorrow morning.

These sleepless nights are really starting to get to me. I'm not old, but my body is really suffering. Due to the lack of real sleep, I'm short with my answers, an emotional wreck, and have the worst body aches from head to toe. Not to mention my knee is still healing and that alone causes me daily pain.

But this Mami can't stop. When do Moms and Dads get a true break? Never, honestly. Unless you go on vacation, for longer than three days. Even when you're on vacation you're really not. Your mind is still consumed about what your kids are up to. Did they do their homework, are they behaving, What trouble they might be getting into. You end up calling them numerous times and really can not relax.

That's ME!! In a nutshell. The worrier, the rescuer, the fixer, the scheduler, the fashion consultant, the hair dresser, the shoe lacer, the doctor, the breakfast, lunch and dinner maker, the etc, etc, etc. I'm cool with it. I love being a Mami, wouldn't have it any other way.

My sleepless nights are a combination of everything actually. And my mind just won't shut down. So goes the story of my life.

So friends recommend sleeping pills(which I might have taken, if I didn't need to be alert for the kids at any given moment). Or the old trick of the trade, warm glass of milk(which I can not stand...milk...chocolate please). Ooooo and a warm bath/shower(tried, and it woke me up even more). There are many different remedies, and most I have tried and continuously have not seen work(for me).

I guess it's a battle I will always have to fight. NO SLEEP...so sad, so sad. I will just have to get it when I can. Crash here, crash there. Nap there, nap here.

My body will have to adjust and take whatever lack of sleep may dish out to it. I'm a big girl, I can handle it.

I need to learn how to release my woes into the Lord's hands.

Sweet dreams for those on their way to dreamland. And may sweet slumber find ME for a change.