My goodness...Will this ever end?

I feel out of sorts lately. Am I to blame for everything that goes wrong?

Like as if the world crumbles will I be pin pointed for its destruction?

Take these for example...

Mom you didn't get my clothes. Or someone says, I have to change this, bend so it works for me, when I don't I'm to blame for it. Or how about this persons the way they are and you just have to adjust to it...BE THE BIGGER PERSON.

Well how about, I DON'T WANT TO BE THE BIGGER PERSON. What for I constantly ask myself. To continue getting the poo poo end of the stick? What if I decide one day to give up, entirely. Tell people to be the bigger person and deal with it. Or just not be the all I can be...would they see?

Nope...never!! They will only see what I'm not doing(another cause for alert) and, yup guessed correctly, I'm not being that bigger person. You know the one who always turns the other cheek. The one who picks up the dirty launrdry(in so many words) separates it, washes it, dries it, folds/hangs/irons it and puts it away nicely/neatly.

You know, one day What if I just throw my hands up and quit...then what? Will someone come to my aid when I can't do it any longer? Maybe, but I don't want anyone's pity, sympathy. I just want understanding. That just because someone says JUMP! doesn't mean I have to comply and say HOW HIGH?

If the tables were turned the people who are always doing the changing and expecting me to make the proper adjustments to fit their new schedules wouldn't cut it, or maybe they'll finally see my end of it. That if I were doing what their doing...they would flip out...start pointing that same finger they point when it's them doing all the asking.

It's the cause of the Ooo's, the Awwwe's, and the My Goodness! Will this ever end?

But I must prevail and keep my head held high and do what's best for me and my children, according to God's will for us.

Life doesn't always give us everything we want out of it. My faith runs thin when I'm not relying on my Heavenly Father, but with constant prayer and trust in Him, He will set me free from man's captivity.

I pray you will pray for me, when I come to mind. As I will pray for you, even when you think no one cares about what your troubles are, know that someone is there when you feel alone and out of sorts...GOD...HE ALWAYS WILL BE!!